It’s been a few days but it’s nice to be back . I spent a couple of days in England with some of my favorite people and was sleeping the final bit of my cold off.
Yes, I am now completely un-cold. The cough is gone, no runny nose and no sore throat. The relief is unreal!
Anyway, today I want to talk about simplicity in life. Because very often we expect great things, want cool stuff, have fantastic stories to tell and we are on a never ending search of this greatness.
I found it. This greatness. Just the other day I was walking Jack & Jessy in my neighbourhood and a thought hit me. As part of my BPD I tend to think in Extremes. I want it all, or I want nothing. I want it black or white. It’s good or it’s rubbish.
But that’s not healthy. And I know that.
So I was feeling very down. I had fallen off the wagon with my eating habits again after doing really well for a while and there it comes – this self loathing, depressing moment where I look in the mirror and hate everyone and everything. Mostly myself.
But I took a deep breath and took my dogs out for a walk. And I found something I didn’t expect, peace.
It was not the greatest weather, I had a headache, I still had to do a whole lot of dirty dishes at home BUT – I felt at ease and calm.
And this is the same lesson over and over again but I just can’t repeat it often enough ->
Simplicity if beautiful. Don’t seek out the nearly impossible just to feel better. Go for a walk. Drink a cup of tea and watch the clouds. Have a cigarette in the rain and feel alive.
Of course this doesn’t work for everyone. But I know so many people who want to achieve the best, the most outstanding and most incredible things (which is admirable) but they hurt themselves in the process.
It’s wonderful and important to have dreams, to reach for the stars… But don’t make that your sole purpose in life.
Celebrate the little things as well.
Like a dog walk.